It's been a terrible couple of days. It was suppose to be good!
I got my laptop which one would think would be amazing news right.. well initially it was, until we had to figure out the easy to install wireless router, which still isn't working despite all we have done, and left me with out internet for two days...
I have had huge headaches that I cannot seem to shake. It's just awful and I feel like I am gonna barf any minute... I hate that.
I lost my patience with my children today. They have been very whiny and demanding, they have been fighting, disrespectful, just plain ole bad... I had ENOUGH!!! I lost my temper, and just yelled. I feel awful for it but I couldn't take it anymore... I feel like I need to cry!
I feel like I am at odds with so much. John tells me it's the reintegration process ( and after his tour to Bosnia he felt the same way)but every little damn thing seems to make me sensitive and sets me off. I don't feel like myself.... it just sucks..
Sorry for such a crap entry... but hey I guess everyone needs to do this every now and then. I think I need to step back and reevaluate some things in my life... I am not going to make any hasty decisions today... wait it out, go back to work and into a routine... let things just sit.
Hopefully tomorrow is better!