Monday, January 31, 2011

In just 3 DAYS!

Hi my name is Rachel and I AM AN INTERNET JUNKIE ADDICT!

Do you have any idea how serious hard that was for me to write?  I had a real eye opener this past week/weekend.  My anxiety was thru the roof .. I was in such a bad mood that I didn't want to chat with anyone .. didn't want to read e-mails ... all because I thought I was gonna go off at any minute!

Here is what I did .... I told the internet and phone to F OFF!  I didn't care what was happening in the world .. I gave up MY BELOVED INTERNET for 3 DAYS!  Wanna know what happened???

My anxiety went away .... I was creative (will post pics later), I played with my girls, I joked with my hubs, I took some alone time to read and indulge in trashy television.  I FELT GREAT!  No .. I FELT GREATER THAN GREAT!  I felt LIGHT!

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what was going on ... I was indulging in the net ALL DAY .. playing my stupid games ... looking for silly things and ignoring all I love!  THAT'S NOT HEALTHY!  HEALTH is my 2011 word ... and I frigged it up on the first month!

Resolved .... I recognize it ... will only play on the net as I can afford to .. and make sure that it's an enjoyable treat as opposed to MY CHOICE OF CRACK ... LOL  Check things off my list before letting myself savour internet life ... making sure that I have balance with regards to my family, creativity, friends and school!

I FEEL GREAT coming to this realization .. and I don't need the approval of anyone to solidify anything ... feels good that I came to this on my own!

Off to enjoy my day ... much to do now that the kids are better!  I am not gonna let the net get in my way today!  LOL

MMMMWWWWWWAAAAA

7 comments:

Kataroo said...

I feel the same way...I feel like I use the 'net' to 'checkout' from life...the same way I use food. I read on the NET LOL recently that there is an app you can put on your mac that will block you from using certain sites like FB at certain times. I was thinking that if I can't stick to my self imposed schedule I may resort to that. LOL
I think the 2 things that hit me the most were:
1. how much I was missing out on..like engaging with the kids...
and
2. I cared much to much what people thought...it caused me anxiety.

crazy eh :)

Good Job Rach :) :):)

Anonymous said...

Good for you my sweets....recognition is half the battle. I am on the net (facebook)...more than I need to be. Same excuses and conclusions as you and Katie reached. I want to play catch up with a coffee and leisurely smile at what I read...not a quick sneaky scan then bolt. I want to keep my resolutions ...and I broke mine already this month.....with Thursday being my creative day at the Scrapbox. Its time to slow down, smell the roses, drink the coffee, pat the fanny of a loved one in passing, hug friends...who literally hug you back

Mom

Kataroo said...

Well said Jan!

Dorrie said...

hey girl...i hear ya.. i am never on FB much anymore... i dunno.. the laundry list of what eveyone is doing every minute of every day is getting old... so much wasted time...
so much going on with work and kids and just keeping the dust off of shit, that the net has definitely taken a back burner to everything else going on... i catch up on a rainy day...and now that i have days off, i will actually get time to catch up on a few things i am committed too... so good on ya for taking a step back and enjoying life a little OFF the net... maybe we'll have more time to chat...in real life..LOL...
love ya xo

sim only contracts said...

hey girl...i hear ya.. i am never on FB much anymore... i dunno.. the laundry list of what eveyone is doing every minute of every day is getting old... so much wasted time...
so much going on with work and kids and just keeping the dust off of shit, that the net has definitely taken a back burner to everything else going on...

HeidiD said...

I hear ya too! Everything in moderation, right?? I am in the middle of making some changes too and one of them will be limited the time spent online, how liberating! I hope you'll still be around online somewhat, I did like reading your blog and seeing your crafty stuff :)

Michelle said...

I fear I too am an internet junkie. :( (sigh) Facebook games have ruined my life! LOL!