Hi my name is Rachel and I AM AN INTERNET JUNKIE ADDICT!
Do you have any idea how serious hard that was for me to write? I had a real eye opener this past week/weekend. My anxiety was thru the roof .. I was in such a bad mood that I didn't want to chat with anyone .. didn't want to read e-mails ... all because I thought I was gonna go off at any minute!
Here is what I did .... I told the internet and phone to F OFF! I didn't care what was happening in the world .. I gave up MY BELOVED INTERNET for 3 DAYS! Wanna know what happened???
My anxiety went away .... I was creative (will post pics later), I played with my girls, I joked with my hubs, I took some alone time to read and indulge in trashy television. I FELT GREAT! No .. I FELT GREATER THAN GREAT! I felt LIGHT!
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what was going on ... I was indulging in the net ALL DAY .. playing my stupid games ... looking for silly things and ignoring all I love! THAT'S NOT HEALTHY! HEALTH is my 2011 word ... and I frigged it up on the first month!
Resolved .... I recognize it ... will only play on the net as I can afford to .. and make sure that it's an enjoyable treat as opposed to MY CHOICE OF CRACK ... LOL Check things off my list before letting myself savour internet life ... making sure that I have balance with regards to my family, creativity, friends and school!
I FEEL GREAT coming to this realization .. and I don't need the approval of anyone to solidify anything ... feels good that I came to this on my own!
Off to enjoy my day ... much to do now that the kids are better! I am not gonna let the net get in my way today! LOL