It has been a rough while for me lately. Much I haven't shared with even my closest friends and family. I am not gonna air my laundry on my blog ... but things have to change .. THEY HAVE TO! I feel like I am spiraling in this deep abyss, and I can't find my way out. The silliest things are bothering me .. and I am walking around as of late with a broken heart and soul. I hide it ... I am very good at hiding it ... I try to smile and brush everything under the rug, or lessen the severity cuz I don't want to face it and/or burden anyone ... which is silly cuz my family and friends are there for me ... I just don't know how to ask for help! Maybe this is it ... the depression I have been expecting and just never allowed myself to cave to. Maybe I need to cave and just go thru it already so that I can find my way back! Maybe it's time to admit that I am not all that atrong right now ... and that's okay .. It is okay right?
I need to get off this rollercoaster of emotions .. it's making me sick .. literally! I feel like a bundle of nerves and I am looking into things that aren't there .. over analyzing! It's snowballed enough already!
Well .. here are the tears, and I am just gonna let them flow .. I need to let them flow .. to get them out .. so that I can lay my head down and have a good peaceful rest already .. so that |I can wake up and start fresh!
Sorry so heavy ... I just had to get it out!