Tuesday, September 14, 2010

YES .. I'M A QUITTER!

You betcha .. I'm a quitter ... and while most of the time this isn't a title I like to express ... this kind of quitting is something that I am VERY PROUD OF!


I can't tell you exactly how many days but it's been at least 3 weeks give a day or two, that I have given up my dear cigarettes.  They were dear to me too!  You see .. I am a freak cuz I REALLY LIKE TO SMOKE!  I like it after a meal, it's my crutch, it's my escape .... and while I think I am awfully considerate to others with regards to my habit .. the straw that broke that camels back was my girls ... when they begged me to stop, and reminded me how horrible of a habit it is, and how it's gonna kill me!  Well when my 7 and 6 y/o girls put it that way .. what's a mama to do!  They teach in school awfully early .. and thank goodness!  This mama decided TO QUIT!

Yes ... while I was definantely "spoken" to by my girls .. I really was ready in more ways than one!  I was feeling sluggish, coughing too much, headaches ... just not so good.  AND SICK ... my goodness ... was I ever sick (and my latest illness was the jumping stone as it was a nasty chest cold and it hurt to try and smoke) ... so that's it!  Let's see if this makes a difference!

I've been handling it pretty good .. yes I went thru SERIOUS BITCH stage .. YES BITCHIER THAN NORMAL TOJO!  LOL  My poor John having to deal with that!  My cravings seem to come when certain thing happen ... which at this point leads to believe they were derived more from habit.  I have moments when the habit tries to bite me ... but so far so good!  I have been chatted thru some serious ones (thanks friends)! 

I will admit ... I got a little more than loopy on my birthday and I came home and had a smoke ... IT WAS AWFUL .. tasted like ass, and made me cough like crazy!  The next morning I almost threw up because my chest felt horrible and heavy!  Always a good reminder when the habit rears its ugly head!




 For now .. day by day .. hour by hour ... minute by minute!  I say goodbye to a long relied upon "friend" ... you are gonna be missed ... I hate to admit that but better to be honest about it!

















On a positive, I am putting away some moula every two weeks .. and maybe I'll just have to treat myself to something pretty big!  WINK!  LOL

MMMMMMWWWWAAAAAAA!

9 comments:

HeatherFeather said...

YAHOO!!!! You are awesome!!! I KNEW you could do it!!! Just wait until you have a big ol pile of dough just screaming your name to spend on something completely sinful, with no concious or regrets!!! Very proud of you FuckFace!!! xo

Jeni Boisvert said...

yay!!!!! Rach I'm SO proud of you my friend. Spoil yourself rotten you deserve it!

Kataroo said...

SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT ALL THE WAY BABY!!! love that your saving money for something just for you too :) great motivation and reward :)

Diva Loca said...

Rach that is SO AWESOME. Way to go you!!! I know how hard it is, but it does get easier!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH.

Keep up the great work!!!

Dorrie said...

amazing...very proud of you girl!!! i don't speak from experience, but i watched my dad and i applaud you... i bow to you...good health and lots of treats just for you are ahead!!!
hugs hugs hugs xoxox

Barb said...

Congratulations on quitting! The girls are so right... this is the right thing for you to do. :)

Stay Funny said...

So proud of you! YOU GO GIRL and get you something nice with all that $$$$$$$$!
Love ya
xx

Bethany Kartchner said...

Good for you girl! I'm so proud of you! Keep it up! :)

Oh, and I so loved your comment on my blog the other day. Big hugs for your encouragement!

HeatherFeather said...

just wanted to stop in and say that I am really happy for you that you are a quitter!! I bet it feels great!

good job Rach!

Tojo